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| So iv always said that i dont care if anyone reads this anymore cause it really seems like no one does. But i put way to much emotion into this and frankly i was really writtin for myself anyway.. so if theres anymore writting its not goin to be PUBLIC simply writting for myself now. sry..
Jarin | | |
| so when you bite the bullet you risk it all. You lay out everything your vulnerable to infront of someone or something you dont trust. How patient can you be before you start to regret it? The bigger the problem, the harder the times, the preserverence that is already enough to kill you but seemingly in the end.. it was never how you expected it to turn out. Think of no metaphore, this is true life and its as real as love and death. So how do you stop being confused at every thing that you dont have enough patience to understand and for things to fall into place right before your eyes? you dont.. because your not suppose to be waiting for it. So the trick is.. not to be the one who bites the bullet but the one who actually pulled the trigger. So..who believes in fate?
Jarin~yes, deep..goodjob | | |
| Ok well.. i just cant sleep.
i guess when theres things to think about, it effects everything you do. It always seems like the things i work so hard to get dont turn out to be what i picture them to be in the long run. I just started writing and i cant even put my thoughts into words, and now im already tryin to ask how to end this entry. I guess the only thing im thinkin about right now is " show me that things are still worth goin through the hard times to get to the better, because i know that almost all the time the better isnt what it used to be". | | |
| yea so i got no reason to write even tho if i said im done doin this..i would be liein.. Isnt that what everyone says anyway? for some reason i think of this as somethin to write the things i think about regardless if you understand it or not. I got nothin to be proud of, no great stories to tell you about how my day went, and certainly no hypocritical critisizing to and from anyone. The times i used to write things in here way back when i first started with this, i could give a story about reality that actually related to most people so closely that it seemed i was speaking directly to you. The type of truth and problem that everyone has. See these are my words, my originality, that i actually had to go through ups and downs to understand. And usually the people who read this far and understand this? ask em.. they have been through this. Maybe after sitting there thinking every story..every deep situation was about me.. maybe one day it will hit you and youd say damn..he's talkin to me.. but no dont get it messed up im actually happy right now. Its when you finally understand that everything absolutly WILL NOT go your way when you start to appriciate the things that are goin your way. Like i said i got no reason to write, but, hey...,everyones a hypocrit right? feck it, i do it anyway. (haha) | | |
| yannoe...for the first time in a while..
Things are good | | |
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